is it true? do i want love?
do i want one companion, even knowing that it is impossible.
knowing that it always ends in hurt.
(but so does this way)
i need a quake.
awake,
but it isn't him
he is a catalyst.
the way he kisses repulses me.
the way he promised a late night snack,
but there was only a glass of wine and pressure from his hands on both my shoulders.
"come. here."
i was being truthful, and he pushed it.
he liked it.
i left in a huff and forgot my scarf.